Hi all. I just watched Louis Ck's newest comedy special, and he said something that really spoke to me.

Here's the quote (removed the profanity):
"I envy transgender people, though. I do.
It's a tough road,
but I envy them on this level
that they figured out what's going on
with them, and they fixed it.
What an amazing gift,
to know what [] is wrong with you.
Who else gets to have that?
It's just a mushy,
I don't [] have any idea!"

Anyone else experience this? I just can't figure out my own sexuality!! At least if I were trans I feel I would have some inner peace.

But as it is, I have no peace with my inner girl. I constantly feel self loathing and shame But when dressing, I feel euphoric and when I am being my inner girl I feel truly at peace. However that all goes away when it's time to turn back. I feel like if it weren't for all the people in my life who would freak out, I'd probably just be trans, but I can't because I'm scared what they would do. Also gender reassignment is expensive and I am a poor person :P Another issue with being trans is that I'm pretty straight. I love girls so much! although I can also get really gay, especially when dressing. But I am straight most of the time. So yeah, I don't know what to think about myself.