Well today I planned to out myself to my two closest (female) work colleagues. (History)
In a way it felt like the right thing to do, but in another way I thought I might be behaving quite recklessly. But in any case I felt I needed to do this.
The night before I printed out my best 12 photos, as I knew they would want to see the other side of me. We planned to meet at a riverside restaurant at 9:30. I arrived on time and my closest friend turned up shortly with the news that our other friend couldn’t make it, so it was just going to be the two of us. I was disappointed, but in the end this would prove to work out for the best.
So we sat down, overlooking the river and made small talk for a short time but it soon came to the time for me to tell all ~ and as you can imagine it’s difficult just to know where to start. I started off by saying how important it is not to tell anyone, because if she felt it would be okay just to tell one person, then that one person would also feel the same and so would the next one person… and it would go on and on. She assured me that her lips were sealed until I released her from the promise.
So I told her from the age of 12 I’ve felt I was transgendered. She was totally, totally shocked. She said afterwards she had absolutely no idea. When I mentioned about the fact that she and the friend had ‘said’ they thought I had wanted a sex change – she said that they hadn’t thought that was the case, but used it as an example of the only thing they could think of that was as big as I was making out it to be. They never guessed it could be for real.
She then went on to ask if I had ever ‘thought’ of dressing as a female?
I had to smile, as I knew there were another few shocks in stall for her. When I told her that not only had I dressed as a female I’ve been out in broad daylight to shops, female fitting rooms, cafés, casino, movies… the list is endless. There were still more signs of shock and disbelief on her face as she asked “But how could you ever possibly do all of that?”
Then I went on to say that recently, as a female, I checked out of a hotel, caught a cab to the airport, checked in for a flight, waited in the airport for hours visiting shops and a few coffee outlets and then flew home and checked in at another hotel on arrival. She still couldn’t see how that could be done and to be honest a year ago I would have agreed with her. When I then said “Do you want to see the photos?, she readily agreed.
So I took my photos out of the envelope and showed her the first one, wondering to myself, what on earth her reaction would be. Well, I wish I had taken a camera along.
I have never seen such a reaction in my life. She was totally in information overload. Her face was frozen for a few seconds in sheer disbelief saying “This is you???!!!”.. Then on to the next, “You look stunning, I can’t believe it, you look fantastic” She went through all of the photos … and then through them all again about three times over, saying how she could now see how I could do what I had done. She was still in deep shock, mentioning the make up, lack of Adams apple, the legs – and saying I looked so good as female. The only part of me she could recognise was my eyes, which are very blue. She went on to say if she had passed me in the street she would have never recognised me. All of this was a huge relief to me.
We talked more about my situation and it was soon very clear that she would do a lot more than just accept me. We spoke about me shopping as Suzy and she blurted out, “Yes, but now we could go out shopping together now!” – and we made a firm date for that.
This has gone better than I could ever have dreamed. Just accepting me is one thing but going shopping together is something else. I told her all about my forthcoming trip to the SCC in Atlanta and she is 100% behind me. We even spoke about the possibility of me going full time and said if I ever wanted to do that, she would be behind me and could see no reason why I couldn’t carry on with my present job, as she would support me and knows the customers would too.
We spoke about and she advised me on such things as Electrolysis, Wonder Bras, Face Care, and Eyebrow Shaping – the girlie list was endless. We ended our 2-hour talk with reference to my voice – asking what did I do when I needed to ‘talk’ enfemme. I told her I had that in progress as well as I was developing a female voice. Straight away she asked me to say something. I told her I didn’t feel comfortable doing that dressed as a guy but I would demonstrate it to her soon.
We finished on a high and we spoke about this new subject several times during the rest of the day.
On the way home I tried out my voice on her. I had been speaking to her a few minutes before hand on the ‘hands free’ phone in my car. I stopped the car in a lay-by, picked up the phone, dialled and she answered. In my best femmy voice I told her my name was Carol and I was calling from the operating theatre of Perth’s major Hospital. I told her we were having problems with our equipment. She asked if I had a patient on the table and I replied ‘Yes’. She then went on to say that I needed to speak to the company’s engineer and asked for my number at the hospital. I gave her a fictitious one and she said I’d get a call soon.
Ten seconds later, after I switched on the hands free set again, the phone rings. It’s my friend asking me to call Carol on this number as soon as I can.
I was laughing on the phone saying “ So did you like the voice?” …
“Yes’ she says, “It sounds like you are chewing something”
I was left a little disappointed as I thought I had been okay
But then after all that, she says, “So can you call Carol straight away as they have a patient on the table”. I then realised that she had been talking about my present voice and not the call I made as Carol – the penny still hadn’t dropped.
It wasn’t until I told her that Carol doesn’t exist ! and I had made the call that her shock sets back in again. She was impressed as I had to confirm several times that I made the call.
So that was my day, it had gone better than I ever could have dreamt. On top of the high that I was already on after flying I am really in the clouds at the moment.
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to you Suzy.
From the photos you posted it appears there isn't much else you need to do. Your looking as good as any Auzzie woman i met in my two visits (1978, 1986)to the Perth/Freemantle area.
to you Suzi and well done you took a gamble and it paid off. i think a lot of sisters in the forum would love to have a relationship like you have with some one close and special. and if i may ad to this your pics are realy stunning and you look great. enjoy the shopping spree 
