I was totally unprepared for the anxiety I felt shopping with my loved one. I totally get her, and love her and want her to experience everything in the world, pushed her to go shopping, etc. And when we went into Macy's I got this totally protective urge and fear that someone was going to hurt her. I even said, too bad we can't hold hands! what the heck was that about? why would I care if we were holding hands, that's what we always do, i think that is what made me feel so unconnected. however, we did have a good time after. . . beer, cards and a nap. I get how we internalize all of society's stuff even if we don't believe it or support it.