OK so given the vast amounts of combined age's and experience among the members on here, which works better for you? Or is it a combination of both age and experience that gives you the self confidence to present in public without over thinking it. I am asking this because I am 27 and up until 5 months ago I was in the closet about my dressing I spent over 10 years fumbling around in there trying to make sense of this uncontrollable urge. I feel as though approaching my thirties I have already wasted so much of my youth hiding from it when I could have embraced and enjoyed it I have been out very recently in the city en femme and I returned home with a sense of excitement and couldn't wait to do it again. Last night I got dressed up and headed out for drive with my GF. I remembered how excited I felt before and thought this can't be any different right? Wrong Nicole, your not in the city now your in a much more rural area where the LGBT scene is literally non existent, I mean there isn't a gay bar within 50 miles of us We get to the shopping center a couple of towns away from where we live and I fell that it is still to close to home as we shop there once a week. My GF asked if I was going to come in with her to pick up some bits and pieces but I froze up terrified that someone would notice me and so I stayed in the car I am disappointed with myself I just couldn't stop over thinking the negative outcomes that, however improbable they may have been still somehow kept me in my car which I now dub the mobile closet I will try again tomorrow night at the movies I just hope one day I will have the experience to sack up and head out without as many excuses to stay in thanks for reading.