Got all fixed up Friday night. Black top, leopard print long skirt, nice boots and my fur coat!!! Topped off by my fem glasses and a Sarah Palin updo. I really was super happy with da look which does not happen near enough. I imagined I was pretty close to looking like an upper class elegant lady in her 40s. Well I have gained weight (20 pounds) but I think the loose fitting outfit with a big fur coat worked to hide that!
Went into my local starbucks. Two young GGs were behind the counter. They finished with the lady infront of me and one with a smile asked in kind of a deferential way "Can I help you Mam?"
Oh lord it just felt so freaking great!!! Well of course the gig was up as soon as I opened my mouth and used my deep guy voice but they continued to be sweet. Got my venti coffee to perk me up for staying up late into the evening and strutted out of Starbucks. There were only 3 or 4 people sitting at tables but of course by the they all locked on to me and were checking out the CD! I did not care!!! I felt a sense of comfort and had a great feeling of confidence. Dang I wish I could have that all the time.
I went out to a resturant to meet a bunch of girls. They were all fulltime, they were sweet and nice, for the most part
That confirmed something that has been floating around in my brain! I am realizing I am a CD! Just don't quite fit in with the FT girls. But hey screw worrying about what others think or how they judge me. Just have to admit I am just a CD and am happy with that!
It was a good night friday...got a thrill at the coffee house and just learned to go with what I am.