Hi peeps its a long time or maybe not since I have felt this way but I am actually feeling quite scared at the moment. I finally have my assessment on Tuesday for gender counselling although they haven't sent me a confimation letter which is typical so knowing my luck when I ring tomorrow they will say sorry but ya haven't got an appointment. I'm so fed up now with the whole dam thing. I just want things to get moving!!!!! I feel like my life is on hold and it can't move forward, well in this area, until things get moving. It would mean so much to me if I could just have the bloody right counselling. I have thoughts which I wish I didn't, jealous thoughts and I hate jealousy coz it is dangerous and kills things. I know what I'm thinking is totally wrong but I can't help it because of my frustration at the situation. My jealous thoughts are not around anyone I know who is on 'T' and sorry if this is so dam confusing!!!! It annoys the shit out of me I can assurre you coz jealousy sucks and it goes against everything I believe in. I guess I'll sort it in my head like I do usually. Thanx for listening peeps!!!! Felix