Just a short note on a quick shopping trip during my stay here in Pennsylvania:
I had a couple of hours to burn off after work today so I decided to go to the local mall. I browsed through Bloomingdale's, Macy's and Lane Bryant en drab and I saw lots of nice stuff, but didn't feel very comfortable staying too long among the racks of women's clothes as I seemed to be the only guy in the area. I know it was probably in my head, but I felt like all eyes were on me.
So, disappointed I decided to go back to my hotel. But on my way out of the mall, I spotted a Marshall's across the street and decided to go over for a look. Again I was the only guy browsing through the ladies clothes, but they had my size and very good prices so I kept on looking. I picked up a couple of things and was looking at some jeans, when I started hearing comments that were directed at me. Two women came down the aisle next to the one I was in and were clearly talking loud so that I could hear them: "Ok, so this IS the women's section? I wasn't sure" and "Just look at this (nodding in my direction)" and finally "Hey Yolanda, come check this guy out". Laughing and snickering the whole time.
I started to turn really read, but then I decided, you know what. She's got some nerve, I'm not doing anything wrong. I ignored them and browsed for a few more minutes and then went and looked at some shoes. They left me alone after I left the clothing area, but I decided that to prove to myself that I had every right to shop for whatever I wanted, I walked up to the fitting rooms and asked for a room. I had to show the sales clerk how many items and I didn't hesitate to show her the blouse and women's jeans that I wanted to try on. She noticed they were female items, but didn't say anything. I got my key and tried on my selections. The blouse fit but the jeans were a little snug. So I walked out with my new blouse and my head held high. I am so glad I didn't let those rude women spoil my wholde day.
Anyway, sorry for the long post, but I just felt like I overcame a lot of shyness and guilt today. I'm proud of who I am and I'm not letting anybody bring me down anymore.