Feelings (love another cd or a man)

[SatinDoll00]

Well...if you have been keeping up with many of the posts on here, you would have seen that I do entertain thoughts of being with a man while en femme.

I have also thought about other CDs or TSs.

The fact is, I am married, and I will not do anything about it while I am.

With that said, a very large part of me feels as though I was meant to be a woman. I have felt this way, and denied it, since I was about 4 years old!

When I was young, really young, my mother and one of her friends told me that if I kissed my own elbow, it would turn me into a girl. I laughed at them, but then went to my room and tried as hard as I could to do it!!!

Where the hell that particular wives tale came from, I have no idea. Maybe it was an old Canadian thing. Who knows. The thing was, even then, I wanted it.

When I was a teen, I would lust after girls, as would any other boy my age, but some part of me envied them. I envied their hair, their clothes, their smell, their bodies, their makeup, everything. I always thought it was just me being sexually frustrated. I finally had sex with a girl at the age of 16. And that was followed by years of sexual experience that most would be ashamed of. (I was a musician = more ass than a toilet seat!)

I am NOT bragging here. I just want to point out that the more sex I had, the more I realized that not only did I love to BE WITH women, that I really want to BE ONE! I hid this from everyone, even myself. I came to terms with it after my first wife and I seperated, and later hid it again when I met my current wife.

Let me say this.

If I had the opportunity to go back and experience some things that I did not experience then...I may not have gotten re-married.

I know this sounds harsh, but I have come more to terms with who I am vs. who I was meant to be since then; only now I am married to a woman that deserves much better than the likes of me.

I have NOTHING but respect for women. I cannot do to her what I should do...and that is leave her and find happiness as a TS.

My advice...discover YOURSELF before you commit to something that you cannot live up to.

Morgan

[vivianann]

well said satin doll, do not get married if you have not figured out what you want to do with your desires as a transgender lifestyle,.

[Lilly 40C]

I've done it in threesomes with the wife watching and helping to get it started. Loved every moment. Will definately do it as often as it comes along.

[CarrieAnneEvers]

I have had those same thoughts, SD. I think the only thing stopping me is my father. I think it would kill him to find out I wanted to be his daughter.

[Hali]

fantasy about men...hmmmm...let me see.. i think is the number of days after i realised i was a CD up till today...anyways thot of it almost 9,000 times, yeah.

[Chelseaswpa]

I totally agree with Satin- I absolutley love other CD/TG girls. I too "lusted" after gg's, but for the same reasons that I wanted to be them! MY current wife - now seperated (who is on here BTW) is a wonderful person and I lover her dearly- but not as a spouse. I wanted to change, but just doesn't work. I too would never have gotten married had I known that I couldn't change. I can never forgive myself for hurting her and ruining her life by my decisions.

[Lorri]

I have absolutely no desire to be with a GG whilst en femme, only men (or pre-op MtF transsexuals). To be with a guy whilst cross-dressed is really the only sexual fantasy I have now. I can't even imagine myself in the male role anymore whilst looking at pornography.

[sonja renee']

all my fantasies are about men, when I CD I am the women that's always been inside,

[lindah]

I love everyone who wears a skirt! Man or woman.

[btmgrl6]

I don't have a desire to be with a CD.I want a big stong masculine man!

Steph

[JoAnnecd]

I love being with another man, but love being with another CD even more----someone that understands the feelings and the desires I have.

[Chelseaswpa]

I love being with another man, but love being with another CD even more----someone that understands the feelings and the desires I have.

yes indeed hon

[Mayliis]

Hi everyone,

I really enjoy crossdressing, wearing high heels and skirt, having boobs, this all makes me feel so feminine and beautiful, that i often thinkf of having sex with man... i hav done it twice and i actually enjoyed this...

i feel myself more female and more i would like to have sex with man... in my dreams i'm fully female...

Mayliis

[steffie39]

As a TG I feel more comfortable around GG's and am attracted to them no matter if I am in male or female mode. However, because I am married, I would never go beyond friendship with a GG. Never have been attracted to men.

Steffie

[Deborah Jane]

GGs only for me! When i,m en femme i think i may be a lesbian! Guys just don,t do anything for me!!

[prism]

I would l to be with another cd.
It would be more sensual than with a man(i hope)
can you tell i'm inexperienced

[thinking]

I've had fantasies being with both men and women. Both with me edressed up and just regular me. They were always domanint though.

[sandrastackings]

Hi,

When dressed I fantasize about with another CD....OK...I also fantasize about being with another CD when I am not dressed...but would be in femme when it happens

[lisalove]

Well I'm bi for other dressers only. Men in general don't turn me on at all. But if they are dressed in something feminine, then I am aroused and ready to play. I on the other hand will pass on a dresser to get with a GG any time, any place.