As a crossdresser who deals with the feelings that all of feel on a daily basis, I have a few oberservations.
First, I do not believe that I was raised a certain way that lead me to want to dress to escape. It is my belief that I have been "prewired" to want to dress as a lady. And it is our society that has not accepted this trait that some people have. I cannot honestly say why I want to wear womens clothes. But I know that I feel electrified when I do.
Also, I wonder if women feel the same way I feel when I wear a skirt and a sexy pair of high heel sandals. I think that they do not. This is because I feel sexually charged when dressed. But then again, maybe some women do too.
All I know is that I have been put into this world with a yearning to wear womens clothes, and society says that I cannot. Even members of my family would be devistated if they knew what I wanted to do. But what is funny is that while members of my immediate family would be shocked and possibly dissapointed, they do not know of the feelings that we crossdressers endure. Maybe if they knew, people might not feel this way about us.
In conclusion, this thread is a way for me to "vent" my feelings, since this is my only outlet at this time. Hopefully, I will get the nerve to step out, and attend a CD meeting.