As I was shaving my legs this morning, I was thinking about things in general and my own situation in particular. Sure, I have a lot of freedom to be Ericka but not without a price. My wife has basically left me even though we are not divorced as she cannot deal with it. My family and friends abandoned me when I came "out" about five years ago. It's taken me that long to build up a new circle of friends who appreciate me for who I am. Sometimes I wonder if it's all worth it. Upon reflection, I can truthfully say it is. The alternative is pretending to be someone I'm really not and I couldn't live like that. It nice to have the option of being either Richard or Ericka whenever and where ever I want. I also appreciate the fact that I have a whole network of new friends on this Forum who are only a couple of mouse clicks away. It's nice being able to share your real feelings with others and not have to be afraid of being belittled or judged. I love the friendship and support and knowing that I am never alone. Take care, Love, Ericka