Just recently ive been having a hard time wondering why i do this.
Its thriling and relaxing at the same time but i hate myself for feeling this way.
Ive never really got to grips with it.
Wouldnt it be easier to have the urge to play golf or something?
I think i look pretty good when dressed, and thats the attraction for me, but ive gotten more and more in to it, and it frightens me. I find it quite stressfull, apart from when im actually dressed and then it feels just right.
Why me?