Hello ladies.
XXOO
Long time no see. Hope life is treating you well.
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I confess that I have been getting somewhat philosophical on my journey, here. My lovely, supportive wife and I were chatting, and the concept of being your authentic self came up .
I am clear, from all my readings and podcast-listening, that one of our ultimate goals in life is being able to live life as our authentic selves. I have been supportive of that for my entire teaching career. However, with me learning about my CD'ing side, I am not 100% clear as to what is "authentically me".
I am trained as an actor, so presenting as whatever I choose is part of my nature. This works well on stage, in front of the students, etc. But the question for me is becoming: What am I, when I am alone? <shrug>
What makes me deeply happy? <shrug>
What metrics can I use to sort this brain-tangle? [Noting the desires as they happen? Simply proceeding with life and letting my subconscious figure it out? Counselling? Community?...]
Heh heh...separating dysphoria from depression, wading through the identity quagmire... pretty tiring, eh? 😉
Yes, my brain goes in obscure circles every now and then. At very least, my wife is still supportive, and helping my explore (as much as she can, given that she is having her own challenges discovering her husband of almost 30 yrs crossdresses)
Hugs and sprinkles
Jenny Robinson