I got my first rejection of acceptance
OMG Girl...Well it finally happened. Today I went over to see some friends (?) that I have known for about 20 years. It didn't seem like everything was right. To make a long story short.....they said they were OK when I first came out (April ?) and was pretty low keyed and I thought everything was fine untill today. They said they started getting uneasy as I moved into heels and makeup and my "boobies". Well duh, isn't this like some of the main ideas that most (not all) of us are trying for? To be ourselves? Anyway they liked the person they knew for the last 20 years better than the "new Marsea." They said they weren't saying they did not want to be friends but felt uncomfortable around me now. Well, my goal here is to be me as fully as I can and I am soooo happy lovin' myself that I am not going to make others feel "uncomfortable" when I am there so I have decided to just sasshay away in my darling heels,makeup and purse and get over it. Their lose. This happen to any of you girls yet?
On a happy note I spent about two hours at my local Merle Norman cosmetic store where the super nice SA gave me a makeover (although I put the products on so I could learn) and literly gave me a game plan. At least now I have a little of everything ,colors seem right,and basic knowledge of where to put what and how much in the world of makeup. For those who are still figuring it out on their own but have no qualms about going out in public and letting the professional help you I recomend this as a great crash course in makeup. Oh yeah...I KNOW all you girls are wondering what this cost me. Aprox $160.00 for A-Z but there are no twist marks on my wrist LOL.
I'll dress as I wish...thank you
I left them because they wanted me to. It was their choice, not mine. If what I wear is how I am judged & perceived as a person that is shallow. I have been someone I did not want to be for the rest of society close to 60 years, I see no reason to go back as a "phony" to satisfy someone elses wishes. I have in the past quit jobs because I was not going to put up with wearing some stupid uniform (implemented AFTER I was hired) although they were happy with my job performance. I was not hired as a billboard for advertising. Here I am not going to wear another "uniform" for society. I did not come out for society. When I made the decision to be Marsea 7/24 it did not include entertaining anothers whims about how I dress.
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Toyah
Now lets see if I have this right, you have left close friends not because they rejected you and your dressing but because they did not want to see you dressed, seems a little more than selfish to me. Would it be so hard to see em in guy mode I really dont think it would would it ??????