When did the change happen?
I was just realizing how my dressing has just become about feeling relaxed and it lost most of its sexual feelings. When I was younger it was wear pantyhose and slips for a while and do a dirty deed and then feel disgusted and throw the pantyhose out or hide them swearing never to do that again.
When I opened up to my wife and I confessed my entire life to her, from the first time I put on my sisters pantyhose up until I wore hers that same morning.
She didn't want me wearing her clothes and we went out that same night clothes shopping, she was picking out bras and dresses but all I really wanted was pantyhose and maybe my own slip. I guess she thought I was a fully crossdresser and I decided to go along with it, little did she know this was the first time I tried on a bra and women's panties, for some reason when I was younger I felt a bra and panties was more of a private thing and never tried them on.
This morning I'm trying to think back when it really lost its sexual habit and became just a normal habit, don't get me wrong I still love the feeling but now I dress a few times a week and sleep every night in some fem wear and it doesn't end like it used to, it just seem to doesn't end at all and not in disgust.
I know we all dress for our own reasons, we are all in the same boat but going to different destinations, but did a transition happen and you didn't even realize, almost like it went from lust to love?
Maybe it just happened with age
I have a theory about this!
Which u may or may not like:
But, I'm 81 and have done a lot of exciting, stimulating, and arousing things in my life, and still try to do. I've found that I can ride that roller coaster over and over again. But, it's never as dramatic as the 1st time. And, after 100 rides I can ride it or skip it next time we're at the fair. Whatever.:straightface:
The first couple years my ex wife and I were all over each other. After 5 years, not so much. After 10 years, not at all.:sad:
The 1st year I discovered dressing I was in my 50's and Sherry returned my lost interest in women and sex after my divorce. But, 17 years ago I began dressing to go out and meet others. Mostly other dressers. And, began experimenting with female characters that r lite years different from the looks that turned me on those first years. Very little of my current dressing acivities excite me that way. Not saying there aren't sexually stimulating moments anymore. Just that they r few and far between.:o
My point being: I don't think anyone can do the same thing over and over and get the same thrill u felt at first!